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The Engineer's Anxiety at the Penalty Kick
How do you expect to be accountable for something you don't understand?
Imagine being a goalkeeper facing penalties eight hours a day, five days a week. Agentic coding multiplied how many decisions I have to stand behind, and that volume wears comprehension down. A migration here, a refactor there, a dependency bump, a schema change. I used to make a handful of calls in a day and could feel the weight of each one. Now the calls get thrown on me endlessly.
One Flew Over the Context Window
We traded the reward of creation with the liability of owning.
I miss having nothing to do. Sitting on my couch without feeling anxious that I have agents doing something on my behalf. Eight agent sessions are open on my screen right now. I need to pick up where I left off on one of them. But all I have is questions, not answers. What I'm certain of is that some of the 8 are hotfixes for hotfixes the agent verified and gave me false confidence it would work.
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